It was the middle of June and I went to this all girls skate session at Modern Skate Park. Not many girls showed up so they had to let boys skate as well. Jodi who happened to work at the Skate Park had an extra set-up with her. (A complete set-up for skateboarding). I had my aggressive skates with me but all of the other girls were out there skateboarding. So I asked Jodi if I could use her board. I was really nervous. Not because I was afraid I was going to hurt myself even though I had all of the protective equipment on, but because I was afraid if I was going to let myself down with my hopes and my dreams. (When I was younger, I would watch the X-Games on the television with my brother and my family. I was like wow that is so awesome on what they do. I want to do that when I get older. However, it didnt happen about five years later I hopped on a board.) I started off in the big half pipe that is about 30 feet tall and 40 feet wide. I just started to get the feel of the board and my feet positioning being comfortable. Yeah I fell a lot. When I look back on that day I can say to myself that all of the bruises and pain I had to go through that day was all worth it. When I felt comfortable with being on the board it was time to see if I could ride around in the skate park. I was nervous but so anxious at the same time. I felt like I was a three year old so happy when they would get a sucker at the grocery store.
I had to face my fears though. I was never going to know if I was ready to skate around or not. It took me about five minutes for myself to just do it and not worry or think about what is going to happen. So I went down the ramp and I felt so free, so relieved. It was the greatest feeling I probably could have ever had in my life at that moment. I knew that I could do it, but it was just a matter of not being afraid of the results. I was so stoked at the end when I fell off of the board. I didnt know how to stop so I kind of just fell off. But I didnt care what I did. I was just so proud of myself for actually going down the ramp and proving once and for all that I can do this.
So there was Jodi up on top of the ramp screaming "Wough... Go Anna... Wough" and all of the other girls slamming their boards on the rail screaming the exact same thing. I was so amazed that even the guys at the skate park were screaming as well. I felt so embarrassed for a second but I just ran on top of the ramp and I did it again expect I went faster down the ramp and I turned around and came back through the street part of the skate park. I figured if I could go down the ramp and that I could stand on the skateboard that I could do anything now.
After the session was done, I was so sad that I had to leave. I didnt want to because I was having the time of my life. I had that feeling inside of me that you never want to let go. The type of feeling that no one can say you suck at it or you are horrible and just doing what you love and doing what makes you happy. When I got home, I was calling up all of my friends and telling them what had happened at the skate park and I told my family members as well. M y brother was so happy for me. Because for once I was happy with the things, I was doing with my life.
So now I love to do two things in my life that makes me happy as I can be. Writing and skateboarding. I love skateboarding so much. I feel like my board is now really my heart. I cant breathe without being on it. I dont know what I would be doing right now if I didnt skateboard. You dont have to be good at skateboarding to actually skate. If you are having fun while trying to do it and it makes you happy then there is nothing wrong. When I go to the skate park on my own to session, a lot of people give me mad props for what I do. To me I dont care about being the best to other people or getting sponsored and what not. I am just doing what Anna wants to do with her life and making myself happy inside and out. I always tell myself that I only live once and I would ask myself how badly I want skateboard and what I will give up for it